From me to you~

Its funny how I really really wish that "someone" will read my blogs, my post..Sometimes, we human beings got no guts to tell wut we think, wut's our feeling face to face...I noe deep down inside, I'm still hoping, but I have gotta be strong in this.. Okie, I am not a poetry writer, but this wordings from a song, is wut i really wish to tell to u...

If I should stay,

I would only be in your way,

So I'll go but I know,

I'll think of you,
Every step of my way,

I will always love you,

Bittersweet memories,

That is all I'm taking with me,
We both know, I'm not what you need,
I will always love you..

I hope life will treat you kind,
I hope you'll have all you've dreamed of,
I wish you joy and hapiness,
But above all this,
I wish you love,
I will always love you.

Thanks~ No Regret...

Extracted from the SMS I received from Eric on 4th May 2009, 0158 hours...

The days we have are short enough,
Better be happy, smile and laugh,
Regret is wasting energy and time,
Makes your face as sour as lime, (isnt lemon more sour?!? =P)
Appreciate all you have with you,
Many you have, don't have a few,
Blessed are those who will realize,
What we have, those are our prize,
Rejoice, be grateful, and do not vie,
You need not regret til the day you die..

Somehow, this sms makes me emo~ Thanks eric for this poem.. There are some bad decisions that one has to go through in their journey of life..But hey,.this is life, rite? But yet, we tend to forget that we have friends that will support us behind and jus sulk for a very long time on a small matter...I am lucky in a way that I have so many friends that I know will be there for me when I need them..Friends, thanks for always being there for me, lending ur ears to me when I need them...

Thank you from the bottom of my heart~

Smth To Ponder~

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by: holding up a RM 20.00 bill In the room of 200, he asked, 'Who would like this RM 20 bill?' Hands started going up. He said, 'I am going to give this RM20 to one of you but first, let me do this. He proceeded to crumple up the RM 20 bill . He then asked, 'Who still wants it?' Still the hands were up in the air. Well, he replied, 'What if I do this?' And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. 'Now, who still wants it?' Still the hands went into the air. My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth RM 20 .

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you. The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it.' Count your blessings, not your problems. 'And remember: amateurs built the ark .... professionals built the Titanic. If God brings you to it - He will bring you through it. So true, aint it? I agree with it 101%...

Tired~

I dreamt bout smth sweet the other day, but I woke up crying..Y? As the popular believes goes, the dream will be opposite in reality..Sigh..I don't know wut else to do..It's so suffering..Letting go is even more hard to do then it's said. I don't know y I'm always attracting wrong companies...I jus wanna blend in sometimes..I do feel left out quite a lot..I really do..I don't know whether ppl hate me, or like me, or pretend to like me..Human can be a pretendious lot...I've always think too much..Wut's others views on me is like n bla bla bla....

I wanna learn to take one day at a time..There's so much for me to think now.. :'( Thank God for friends like my jie and di...They are some frens that keep me sane..

I felt that there's nth I do best..It's like I don't have a skill at all..I wanna improve my badminton skill..But then, after 1 month of training, I'm still the slow one..I progress the slowest..I wanted to give up a few times d coz I feel that Ive no potential for that..Everyone is like so geng now, n I'm jus like kanasai...

Sometimes, y I think friends pretend to like me? Coz I sux at advising and I talked a lot..I really really talk a lot..I always said the wrong things..Aargh..Tell me wut to do..I'm so so depressed thinking bout this.. :'(

~Friends~

Friends, they come and go...I've no fate with frens last year..Lost so many frens under unforseen circumstances..I was really disappointed with myself at that time..But I guess GOD is not that cruel at all...I made 3 great frens co-incidentally as well..To explain how I met them n become "family", its a long story but they are great great frens who give me advice n we support each other in everything..It's such a rare frenship n I'm lucky to have them..We become so close in such a short time..Our record was meeting each other every nite for 1month,yes? Hehe..

Year 2009, I am those that never make new year's resolution..But I was ecstatic coz some frens that I lost, we let go of our indifference and become frens back..But yet again, there area also a few ppl that don even wanna be frens back..I sincerely tried to talk to them, but they don give a damn, and I never like this kind of ppl..They do mistake, they "jual mahal" >.< ..But nevermind ler, since I already give up their friendship..Im a strong gal (I'm trying to be one!!) so I never depend on ppl..Maybe jus to make ONE new year resolution..I WONT BE SO SILLY ANYMORE!!..Thats a promise to me, myself and I...I don wan to hurt ppl around me, as well as myself..Sometimes, we cannot get what we want, but no matter wut, for me, I treasure my frens very much..So frens that hurt me, I forgive u all..In future, we might not cross path anymore, but I forgive u all..

Chinese New Year is jus 2 weeks away..Old another year ler -.-" but we got so many upcoming activities which I hope will be materialised..Trip to Genting, T'ganu, Taiping..Hehe..Have a Happy N Prosperous New Year to all out there :)

Tanjung Sepat Trip

Hey there y'all..I'm so sleepy...Didn sleep for the whole day coz accompany a friend to Muar....Anyway, any of u heard of Tanjung Sepat before? I jus went there for a day's trip with a bunch of my badminton mates..Its a bout an hour drive from Sepang..There's nth much there but it's awesome that this group is so co-operative n sporting..Hehe...This is the place we had our bfast, n the very place that my "baja hitam" specs fell into the toilet bowl :'( I love that specs..But Irene sis replaced it for me already..Thanks..Hehe..

We took this at the lobby of the Gano Homestay we stayed..All 10 of us fit into a single room o, with 7beds..Hehe..Its a very clean n cool room...After we check in, we proceed to visit several places namely the Longan farm, Coffee Factory (which looks like a motor repair shop according to CK >.<), then Pao making place..We had our lunch there as well n the Pao is one of the famous food in that area..We had vege as well as meat Pao..Its really not bad..Lots of ppl visited that area that day as well..After Pao for lunch, we procceeded back to our homestay to change n go to the beach..Excited..Its been years since I went to a Beach..

We basically de-toured to the mushroom farm to have a look on how oyster mushrooms are grown. Then after that we proceeded to the beach..CK, Shirley, LazyLamb, Irene n Me decided to sit behind the Toyota Hilux n the wind was so strong that our hair was a mess after we reach the destination. So horrible..Sorry guys, no pics of that here..Hehe...Then we played some games at the beach n boy, it was fun...Really Fun..The funniest part was the punishment sessions..Salute Sunz for thinking all the funny punishments..There's coin on the face n Butt writting punishments..Damn funny...We stayed at the beach until around 6.45pm n proceeded back to our homestay to prepare ourselves for dinner..

We had 8 types of dishes n one soup plus one tang yuen for dinner.N it was really really cheap..2 thumbs up for that restaurant..We proceeded back to the Homestay after dinner n played games inside the room..Again, it was a really funny experience..We played til 2am n decided to call it a day..The next morning, we all went to the lover's bridge to take a few pictures and decided to go for breakfast before our journey back to the badminton court..All in all, this trip was really a relaxng n enjoyablet time for christmas.. :)

It hurts!!

Well, well, well...Its been a while (AGAIN!!) that I've updated...Seems like there's a lot of sad things that happened even thou is like wut, 13days to a new year? A friend said, look at things the positive way...Have u ever felt like once u r confident that things will get better, ur hope comes crashing down? Thats wut I felt rite now...Its been 3days that Ive suffered...Then when I tot that things will be better today, It got worst...Who I am friends with, who I go out with, it doesn't concern u..Pls jus pls...Try to respect ppl's life...Control ur language n control ur mouth especially...We r human too, with feeling...

Sigh, wut is love? Nobody can actually give a real answer to wut is love...Love is sweet or Love is suffering? Perhaps both? It hurts to c that someone u cared so much, don really care of ur existence...Sms halfway, stop abruptly...How would u feel? My friend quoted this to me.. "Its okie if u dont love me, but u can't stop me from loving u"....