When You are Feeling Alone like No One Cares

Hey ppl, i jus came across this piece of erm..poem I wrote down in my long forgotten notebook...Dedicated to all my frens out there n to me as well =P

Every night, someone thinks of you before they go to sleep,
At least 15 people in this world loves you,
The only reason someone would ever hate you is because they want to be jus like you.
There are at least 2 people in this world that would die for you,
You mean the world to someone.
Someone that you don't know exists loves you,
When you make the biggest mistakes ever, something good comes from it.
When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look...
Always remember the compliments you received.. Forget the rude remarks...

I believe most of you has come across this poem..Well, do u all agree with it? I hope I'll practise wut I preaced..Hehe...Somehow, loves doesnt need to come from lover alone..Loves from family and friends...N even if u only have one fren that genuinely care for u, u can label urself as rich...Rich with love...Well, i had the most awful dream today..I hope it wont become reality anytime soon...Im not sure if i can handle it if it become reality..Choi Choi Choi......Touch wood, metal, tree... Jus don let it become reality...

Friendship Week

Notice how we always get "Best Friends Week" kind of emails? Well, wut I wanna say is that True frens are for life...One doesnt have to wait for a special day to celebrate with their best friends..I came across this beautiful poem n wanna dedicate to my true frens out there...

Once in a lifetime,
You find a friend,
Who not only touches your heart,
But also your soul.

Once in a lifetime,
You discover someone,
Who stands beside you,
Not over you.

Once in a lifetime,
If you are lucky,
You will find someone,
As I have found you.

Very special people,
We can be ourselves with,
Talk with, Laugh with,
Hope with and Believe with.

~True Friendship~

Thanks for being there for me friends..Love all of u..Muackx...

Enjoyable Weekdays =D

Hey all..First of all, the connection sucks...Wut's with Streamyx anyway? Or better question is, why must they download the whole day? Grr...I've tried to post this blog for 3 times but I jus simply cannot log into this or other webpages..Geram rite? Anyway I jus came back from a little vacation with my friends..We went to Penang n it was fun except for some little unfortunate event at the end of our trip...Here goes :~

Day 1: ~
I left home quite early that morning..Left at 6.20am n walk to Lrt to wait for PC, TF n KS...Hehe n guess wut? PC is the only one that reach on time. LOL.. N then we took Rapid KL to Titiwangsa..So kin cheong that time.. Coz we kinda got stuck in the jam n the time was already 7.50am...Our bus is at 8.30am..Haha at the end, we reached Pudu at around 8.15am =D Thank GOD.

KL n Chelsea was already there when we reached. Then we boarded the bus n enjoy our journey to Penang...The bus actually made a De-Tour into Taiping to refuel.. "-.-" n PC said that the bus wanted to fetch me back home..Hehe..

We reached Penang at about 2pm then we took Rapid Penang to Komtar before we got lost..Haha..Let me assure u, MALAYSIA's PUBLIC TRANSPORT IS SO UNRELIABLE.. Grr..At the end, we took taxi to Hotel Malaysia... Then we checked in, changed n then proceed to Prangin Mall to have lunch...Cincai eat only coz everyone's stomach was already growling then..Hehe..Then we shopped a while n went back to the hotel around 7pm..My friend, Eric waited for us at the hotel when we reached (sorry for the waiting part)..Haha then we cleaned ourselves, bathed, rest n then proceed to Gurney Plaza..So empty lar inside..Not like last time..So teruk :( We had dinner at the famous Gurney Drive..N nothing's is nice..For me lar at least..PC loves the Ma Zhi (Mua Zhi). After dinner, Eric brought us to The Ship's Ship to take pic n to the little "Petaling Street" (this is wut i call that area) for some little souvenir shopping..Then we round Penang a while n actually went to the "ugly buah pinang roundabout"..Hehe..We decided to call it a day n went back to the Hotel to rest...

*PS: Nice Bed Talk btw PC..Hehe...We shud do it more often =P


Day 2: ~
All of us woke up early n proceed to breakfast in the Hotel's Restaurant..I don't remember the name..The breakfast r? Erm, acceptable gua..Very limited options though, can count somemore..Haha..Initially we tot of taking the bus to Penang Hill, then one van uncle call out to us..After bargaining, we decided to rent the van for RM300..Quite reasonable price :D...I'll jus list down the places we went...Sleeping Buddha, Siamese Temple, Batik Shop (I love the skirts there n PC loves the erm..wut do u call it r, a multi purpose Batik cloth, but hor, too expensive d), Coffee Factory (we actually spent rm 250 alone on coffee, 12 packets of coffee to be exact -.-" n Eric said this is the first time he heard ppl go to Penang n bought coffee. 20 over flavours wor, how to resist? =P n I accidentally poured coffee onto my white T-shirt, hence the black spaghetti....), Local Products (where we got the Tambun biscuit, Nutmeg products), Botanical Garden (locals called it Monkey Garden, hehe. Shuo Han actually asked the uncle how does Lao Kao got its name..N then she said she heard ppl scolding ppl Si Lao Kao before!! Haha), Kek Lok Si (unfortunately, they are renovating the bronze Kuan Yin statue, therefore cannot get a glimpse of it), Penang Hill (also known as Bukit Bendera..They are still in the renovating stage n the Tram will only go halfway, therefore we decided not to go up. Wont get to c anything so y wanna waste time n money to go up rite?), Butterfly Farm (I'm a bit disappointed at this place to be frank..Nth much to c like last time anymore..Maybe I go too many times d also..Haha) n the last place we went to was Batu Ferringhi, of course..Some of us decided not to play water n jus sit there n relax n play sand instead...Beng, Han n KS went on the Banana Boat ride n the Guy with the horse kept bugging us to go on it...Hehe..Then at around 7pm we proceed back to hotel..We bathed n then we had a last minute planning to celebrate TF's Bday..So Eric took me to get a cake n then we went to some Western Corner n had dinner...My frens, Chang Wey, Yin Leng n her bf joined us there...After dinner, we went back to hotel..Some of them went out to have supper n last night walk around our hotel area..I chose to stay in the room coz bathe d..Lazy to go out..haha.....


Day 3: ~
Chelsea woke up feeling unwell...Little did we noe that was the starting of our little unfortunate incident in Penang..One by one start to feel sick..We suspect is the western food n of course, Penang's weather..At the end of the day, only me, PC n Foo is alright..Xiao Zhen Zhen met us up at the hotel n brought us to lunch at New World but the at that time, most of them don't have appetite anymore..Initially, xiao zhen zhen wanted to bring us to Queensbay for shopping but we decided to go back as soon as possible coz the sickness is getting worst..We got the 2.30pm bus n waited til 3pm....Thank God we reached home okie...


All in all, I feel guilty coz I was the one who suggested dinner at that place, but my frens assured me that It aint my fault...If its someone's fault, is the Chef's. hehe, thanks guys...Well, i really enjoyed this holiday, even with "pain in the ass" character, but I guess it went well. Yet again, I need to thank Eric..Without him, I guess we couldnt have night outing at all...Nah Eric, Monkey for u =P..

Hope u all enjoyed the little holidays...I enjoyed it a lot..Even with the getting lost part, I still enjoyed it..Will treasure the pics for life..Coz a picture is worth a thousand words ( n we have hundreds of 'em...)..Let's plan another outing soon, but dont make me the organizer again ya =P Cheers... Huggs...XOXO

Unforgettable Memories

Hello people, I jus came back from my weekend escapede..Hehe...Actually, I jus came back from Kota Kinabalu Sabah..Went there to surprise my sister for her birthday..It was so lovely that I will treasure this 5 days forever til the day I'm no longer here...

My sis bf n I planned this 1 and a half month ahead..The look in her face was oh-so-lovely..She was so shocked to c me, n i hope shes happy that her bf planned this for her bday...Well, nevertheless, I had the greatest holiday of my life...This is the first time I took a flight, n I love it..Love,love it..will definitely fly again..Hehe..

My sis bf is also so so nice, no words to describe him..He has qualities that most of the guys dont have anymore...Haha..Go figure out yourself, guys :D Anyway the event went like this: ~

Day 1:~
Mr Guna fetched me from the airport n took me for lunch..The best indian food ever, the fried fish is different..Cannot get anywhere else...N the mango lassi..Sedapnye...Haha..Then we proceed to a newly opened shopping complex called 1Borneo..Went n book the place for dinner, the place where Im suppose to appear suddenly in front of my sister..Then went to look at cakes...After that, he has to go back to wait for my sister n bring her to 1Borneo..N since I got 4 hours to "waste", I decided to go watch movie alone..Haha, now I noe the feeling of watching movie alone, its awesome...Watched House bunny, n boy was it funny..Then, its time for me to show up at the restaurant with the cake...Hehe, my sis jus looked at me for a while before she's realised that I am me, her sister..Hehe..Love u sis...Then, on the same day, they have this musical firework thingy going on at the shopping complex..So we stayed for the fireworks before we go back home..Home, haha, sis has to plan for me to sleep there, borrowed bed from her housemate..Sorry for the trouble ya! Then, time to sleep......

Day 2:
I woke up quite late...About 9am..N do u all noe that in Sabah, it gets bright as early as 6am? No kidding..Was not used to it..Hehe..Then we went to have Tose, the one that my sis has been bragging to me about :p, Finally get to eat it...N my sis isnt bragging at all :D...Its really really huge....Then we went to a place called Bukit Bendera, where u can c some part of KK from up there...Then we went to a pelabuhan jus to take A picture..Yes, one picture..Hehe..Well, it seems like Mr Guna n my sis dont like to take photo so much :( After that, we went for ice cream coz the day is so hot n humid...The brand there we cannot get here, its called VedaBlu...They got variety of flavour, but according to my sis, that's only half of it in the shop that day..I had something Honey, while sis had Irish Cream...Then we tapao lunch at a shop called peppermint chicken, n proceed back home...It was a lazy afternoon for us..Too hot d, so we sleep at home in the afternoon.. Hehe..At night, we went to another shopping complex to have Italian Dinner together with my sis's housemates..I had Spaghetti Carbonara n Banana Oreo as my drink for that night. Its a bit costly lor, but sis said it's okie.. :D Then we walked around a bit, n sis asked me to get smth for myself...But then, there's nth special I wan, except HP lar..Hehe, which is impossible for my sis to get me...Hehe...N then we ended the day with a cup of fruit juice..We can campur anyway we want, n mine cost me RM 8!! Faint...N its not nice compared to my sis RM 3's banana juice...Tsk....

Day 3:
Its my bday!!Haha..We went to a place called damai for bfast..Sis said the PanMee n YuMee nice..So we went there to try it out, but sis got pissed off as the PanMee forgotten her order n at the end, we tapao-ed hers back home..Then again we had a lazy afternoon, then as I was about to dozed of around 4pm, Mr guna called said he's coming..Haha, they took me to 1borneo again to ask me choose my bday present, again, I didn c anything I like..even books cost much more there, so I suggested to my sis, give me cash, I go back KL to buy. Then my sis asked me wut i wanna eat.I said sushi, but Mr Guna dont like sushi, so i said anything..Eat together more fun ma rite? Then sis said we tapao sushi back home..Hehe, sis bought me my fav food, good enuff d...As for dinner, we went to eat Ikan bakar n western food..I ordered cheese chicken smth like that n had Coconut water..Yummy...Then we went to Tanjung Aru, a beach to walk around...Haha, nth much to c, as the water is dirty...Then we called it a day...

Day 4:
Its monday, sis has to go to work...N I'm alone at home with her housemate..There's nth for me to do except to read n to online..So i offered to iron my sis's clothes, since she so tired during the weekends...Then online a while, then sleep, then read..Basically nth much...N my sis housemates caught a rat..Haha..Cute lil rat..Sis work late today, so I had economy rice for dinner that Mr Guna tapao for us..Hehe..Its jus a normal day...Oh, n I found out my fren from UTAR, Michelle was back at KK to do her training..Then she took me out for supper..I love the pearl milk tea yam flavor..Simply delicious..N the dumpling, something different. Haha, its not a boring day after all :p

Day 5:
My last day in Sabah, so I suggested to my sis that we go out for dinner again before I leave on Wednesday... We had nasi lemak for dinner, after she came back from work. Then went to another shopping complex..Jus window shop, then we proceed back home, coz both of them need to work tomorrow... :)

Day 6:
Last morning here in Sabah..Manage to open my eyes at 7am to say bye to my sister before she goes to work...Then online a lil while, n Mr Guna came n fetched me at around 1pm to the airport..Had my lunch there (KFC), then shop around a bit, got some chocs for my housemates n then I checked in...Sat there n observed the take off n landing of a plane, n how they put the bags into the cargo..Hehe, jus sat there watching ppl's action, n at the same time, open my eyes to c handsome guys..Muahaha...Got a couple, but not much..Hehe..Then my flight got delayed..Letihnye menunggu..Then when I was inside the flight, felt sad a bit lor, so fast going back d..But I will definitely come again...Sabah is a nice place to visit...Hehe..


So thats how I spent my days in Sabah..The look on my sis face n the time spent with her n Mr Guna is so precious n will forever be in my heart...Two thumbs up for u Mr Guna :D

Oh, n happy birthday mummy..You will forever be in our heart...

Choices of My Life

Hey its been a long while since I've last "updated".Well, currently I'm having a not-so-3-months break. Hehe, although I don't have classes, I still have to go back to uni to finish up my final year project. Well, I've been doing some thinking lately, should I actually start a new life when I move into the next phase of my life which is the career path?

I dunno why sometimes my intentions are good but it gets backfired. Not once but many many times. The latest one was that I tot of surprising my friend abroad with a card and I was worried that his gf might get jealous. Well, you see, the thing is, I sent out few cards that day not specially to him alone. I jus wanna cheer him up but oh well, it got backfired. I am really sorry if I caused an unnecessary quarrel btw u n ur gf Micky. I wished I could make it up to both of u, but then again, I think better not. It might get backfired again.

I used to be cheerful, carefree but then nowdays, good deeds will be taken advantage of n it might BACKFIRED back at u. Notice the capital letter? Well, I've been keeping this for a long time. I guess its time for me to tell it out. A lot of things happened this year or more specifically, this semester. It started off with me being a busybody trying to oppose the collection of class fund for the photostate materials this sem. Its not that I opposed for the fun of doing it. I did it because I strongly believe that our class fund have remainder that's enough to cover our materials for another semester. I went n asked few people whether they agreed to stop paying. And all I can say that it backfired. I was the one that was being blamed for spreading this "rumours" and I was being called coward. Well, I don't mind all this name calling, I've been labelled a lot worst than this. Its right for SC to call me a coward as when I reflect back, I let her do all the confrontation n I was jus at the back listening. I wish I can apologize to three of u but I think you all dont wan to c the sight of me yet Im sorry all the same. N as for CH, I wanted to apologize to her badly, but I don't think she will accept my apologies. I jus hope that someday, she will understand why I did this. I regret that we aren't friends anymore. As for other classmates who jus happened to choose side against me, I don't hold anything againts any of them. Why u may ask? Its their freedom to choose to believe but yet again, I jus wished they will asked me. A close friend of mine jus told me, it might be a good thing that some aren't friends anymore. Yea, well wut can I say bout this except to regret it?

Another incident that really saddened me is that I'm not that close to my used-to-be close friend/ confidante anymore. More specifially, we are more of a hi-bye friend now. How did it happened u may ask. It started with her dating for the first time. Well, don't take it the wrong way. She jus thinks that I depended too much on her (let me assure u that I am not dependent on anyone). When I used to date, she will sulked and jus find fault with me for going out for a date. N now after she started dating, she said that I was too dependent n she wants me to learn to be independent but the steps that she took is a bit hurting for me. Well, I was not angry with her for sort-of "abandoning" me n going out but I was furious that she told the problem I told her to another friend of hers. I entrusted her with the secret n she told the other girl n worst, she's really devoted to this gal's words. This gal suddenly said that she thinks me n my friend smsed each other too much. N my friend came n told me the same thing n added a line that goes 'I think we should stop sms-ing each other too often'. I was really hurt that us sms-ing got anything to do with the gal n my friend actually listened to her without considering my feelings. N me, dumped aside. We don't sms at all nowadays, my problems remain my problem and I keep to myself nowadays. Once, she came to talk to me when I was in the library after 3 weeks without contact, boy was it awkward. I can feel that I was being really fake to try to talk to her.

One should not hate but to love, yes? But how can I love all these individuals for all the disappointment they brought onto me? But again, I don't hate them. Its because of all my actions that they took this step. I really dunno whats going on with me. I wasnt like that. Blame it on me for being busybody or what not. I really needed a fresh, a new life away from all this. Far far away. I wished that I do not exist but yet, life has been wonderful so far with friends that trusted in me n guided me when I needed it, friends that laugh and cried with me, I really appreciate ur friendship. To those that hurt me or to those I've hurt, I still treasure the friendship we once had n will treasure it forever. I jus want to start anew. I believe, to them life will be better without me around.

I guess I will be signing off with a big apology to every individual I've hurt. I do not n dare not asked for ur acceptance but please believe or try to believe that this is a sincere apology to each and everyone. And again, this post might backfired n get some ppl angrier. I do not intend for that to happen. Forgive me if this post hurts any of u. I am sorry from the bottom of my heart.

Saddened....

Well, I shud be happy that my exams over, yes? Yea shud be..But I'm saddened by smth..I was quite excited that my exam's over..So decided to call my sister to ask how is she doing coz she's down with fever this 2 days..All my effort to contact her prove futile..She didn reply my msn. Maybe she's resting..No issues here..No hard feelings..So I called her lor today after exam..Then she sounds irritated answering my call..Then I jus said, nth d..N close the phone..I was sick myself..Jus wanna noe how's shes doing..Sigh..Well, she's a gal with little words..If u happened to stumbled across this blog sis, I jus wanna said, I jus wan to noe how u r doing.Not to disturb u...Sigh...

Ecstatic, Excited

Wow, it took me the whole day to recover my password for my blog...This means that I shouldn't leave it "unblogged" for so long...Haha..Oh ya, thanks Brenda..I found a way to reset the password..Rupa-rupanye, I signed up using my yahoo account..Not my GMAIL account..Wut a moron am I..Haha..Im not preparing for my exams, instead, I am here facing my lappie and jotting down this blog...

Oh, back to the title "Ecstatic, Excited"...I'm actually planning a special event for a special someone..Well, it need to remain a secret,mana tau one day that special someone stumble upon this blog, not surprise anymore ma rite? Haha, when the time comes, I'll blog bout it..But then I jus hope that SS will appreciate and happy..Haha..It involves me doing smth that I havent done before...

8 days break since the last paper to my next paper..Too long eh? Im too relaxed already..Have to push myself to keep studying...Always taking for granted that 8 days is a long way to go...Sigh..Wut am I gonna do after the last paper ya? Let's c, my relatives (all of em....) going to Cherating for holidays, that leaves me with nowhere to go after the holidays..Sigh...Cannot go Ampang, nor can I go back to Taiping..They are all going without me :( But doesn't matter lar...Hope they do enjoy the trip n fill me in with their experience...Haha..I on the other hand, has signed up to go for a day trip to the forensic department...Thanks to my housemate's offer..I was thinking, since Im free, why not go gain some extra experience rite? Hehe...

My sis bought a car..Nothing Fancy..Jus a Viva..Can't wait to let her drive me around...Haha...Hope that she practice on her driving skills before driving me around..Muahaha...Oh, how I miss all my story books....Few more days before I can bury my nose into the story books...Can't wait..Already got my "stocks" ready..Hehe...Oh, cannot..Got report to do first before I can start to read my beloved story books..Sigh...Mooncake festival has jus passed..Nothing special..Didnt do anything at all..Didn't go back, didn't celebrate...

Tuesday, Aargh....Such a long way to go before I can really let my hair down n relax (although, I'm partially relaxing now)..Hehe...Take care y'all...All the best in ur final paper....U all get to enjoy a day earlier than me..Hehe... Cheers...